super cool reading!
Know that you were chosen – for some purpose, for some rhyme, for some thing out there. And in return, you get to choose something, too. You get to choose to engage with a community and contribute to it. You are all so special and so good at what you do.
People don’t dole out compliments here very often or very well. But man, do people deserve them. I look around and I see the most amazing people in my classes. All of us have like, ten thousand reasons to jump with joy!
You are beautiful and smart and talented and a wonderful contributor to the community. Thank you for being such a wonderful you.
There is some horribly cliche inspirational quote somewhere out there that asks, “What would you do if you were not afraid?” Now, let that sink in, just as I did over the past few days. These days of not being afraid are slowly turning into weeks, and I feel that I’m tackling on things that are bigger than me. I’m going to be so honest here for a minute – especially after coming to Dartmouth and delving deep into East Coast culture, I’ve never been made so acutely aware of my Asian-American identity, and how this aspect of my life has so sharply shaped and distinguished me from others. (Hell, when you’re from Southern California, being Asian-American is something that can totally blend into the every day without even a second thought.) When you look at Dartmouth’s history, you don’t see Asian-American women leading Student Assembly as President. Hell, you rarely even see Asian-American women as presidents of sororities. Obviously, this self-limitation is being reduced to something simplistic here because I’m tired after a long day, but there’s something that I’m just bursting to share – I’m not afraid! I’m not afraid of going where Asian-American women haven’t gone on this campus before. This realization that I really am, and can be anything, has inspired me to apply and run for some major upcoming positions and opportunities, and I am so excited. // At the same time, this idea of unlimited potential is also so foreign, in a way. Throughout my training at OPAL, I’ve learned to engrain this fact in myself – I am not the definition of privilege. Though I do stem from an upperclass SES and background, I am still a woman and also a POC functioning in a world that frankly, does not favor me, or people who look like me. Experiences of encountering racism and sexism have been painfully and accurately seared into my memory, and it’s so hard to forget these things because a part of yourself does not allow the erasing of what so importantly constitutes one’s identity. Knowing that, by my genes, there is so much that I could lack when it comes to degrees of privilege, it’s hard to remember that I really can do anything. I think this is partially why I’ve been taking a short break from activism – a part of me, painfully honestly, does not like being reminded of the privileges I don’t have. Yes, people always say that those who are privileged don’t like acknowledging their abundance of it. (Hence, white guilt.) But being told that I am naturally limited in this world doesn’t please me. I can do anything. I will do everything. // A lot of what I’m writing here is really scrambled due to the fact that I’ve just had a long day, but so much has been on my mind! Probably not the best way to approach questions of identity and privilege. // I feel very well balanced in my life right now. I mean, crazy, right?! When, if ever, was the last time I was able to say that? Maybe it’s just because I feel so fulfilled, and for some reason, I feel like I am doing everything I want to be doing? Of course, I’m pushing myself to experience more, live more, and learn more, but I feel that I’m being social, that I’m getting enough sleep, that I’m eating healthy, that I’m happy, that my relationships in life are doing great, that my family and friends and resources at school support me. You know what it is? It’s that off term I took. God, off terms are just magic. You come back feeling so refreshed and ready to take on the world! And that’s how I feel! Obviously, life isn’t perfect – but hey, maybe I’m just feeling more appreciative of the little things.
Anonymous asked: 47,20,17,6
- 47. turn ons - This sounds strange and almost contrived, but I’ve learned very recently that I don’t have many turn-ons, just things that pique my curiosity. The best approach (for me, personally), has been to take each person as they are, admire them for their individuality, and appreciate the little nuances about them. So I guess I don’t have any general turn-ons, sorry. (Maybe when people are extraordinarily gentlemanly, but not in a sexist/condescending/Old World way? Hahaha.)
- 20. what is your favourite song at the moment? Everything by Sam Smith
- 17. opinion on insecurities – They’re absolutely inevitable considering how harshly we’ve grown to judge and un-love ourselves! I need to be kinder to myself, more than I already am, at least.
- 6. is it hard for you to get over someone? Now that I am older and a little more experienced, I think that I place much more value in my relationships than I did in my first one. Therefore, I do think it’d take a lot more out of me.
Anonymous asked: how long were you in oracle?
Back then, two years felt like a very long time.
poettc asked: 1,3,13,31
3. do you miss anyone? I miss my mom and sister the most, I think.
13. how do you feel right now? I’m in a thinking mood. I’m not too overloaded with work and therefore not too stressed, but having just come out of an interfaith discussion for my residence community, there’s a lot stirring in my mind. I feel happy, though. I feel super grateful, and I feel special. (Does that sound strange? I was talking to a dear friend the other day on the nature of being chosen – for different paths, purposes, what have you. We’re all chosen in a way, and we all choose.)
31. 3 random facts
- I’m making it a personal goal to learn more about Buddhism this term.
- I am currently the happiest I’ve ever been in my life. (I plan on only becoming happier, though.)
- The one word I’d love for people to describe me as is magnetic. “She has this magnetism..”
- 1. selfie
- 2. what would you name your future kids?
- 3. do you miss anyone?
- 4. what are you looking forward to?
- 5. is there anyone who can always make you smile?
- 6. is it hard for you to get over someone?
- 7. what was your life like last year?
- 8. have you ever cried because you were so annoyed?
- 9. who did you last see in person?
- 10. are you good at hiding your feelings?
- 11. are you listening to music right now?
- 12. what is something you want right now?
- 13. how do you feel right now?
- 14. when was the last time someone of the opposite sex hugged you?
- 15. personality description
- 16. have you ever wanted to tell someone something but you didn't?
- 17. opinion on insecurities.
- 18. do you miss how thing were a year ago?
- 19. have you ever been to New York?
- 20. what is your favourite song at the moment?
- 21. age and birthday?
- 22. description of crush.
- 23. fear(s)
- 24. height
- 25. role model
- 26. idol(s)
- 27. things i hate
- 28. i'll love you if...
- 29. favourite film(s)
- 30. favourite tv show(s)
- 31. 3 random facts
- 32. are your friends mainly girls or guys?
- 33. something you want to learn
- 34. most embarrassing moment
- 35. favourite subject
- 36. 3 dreams you want to fulfill?
- 37. favourite actor/actress
- 38. favourite comedian(s)
- 39. favourite sport(s)
- 40. favourite memory
- 41. relationship status
- 42. favourite book(s)
- 43. favourite song ever
- 44. age you get mistaken for
- 45. how you found out about your idol
- 46. what my last text message says
- 47. turn ons
- 48. turn offs
- 49. where i want to be right now
- 50. favourite picture of your idol
- 51. starsign
- 52. something i'm talented at
- 53. 5 things that make me happy
- 54. something thats worrying me at the moment
- 55. tumblr friends
- 56. favourite food(s)
- 57. favourite animal(s)
- 58. description of my best friend
- 59. why i joined tumblr
- 60. ask me anything you want
Translating Middle English is actually the coolest thing ever. A short I’m translating now – (Original text leads to a void Swarthmore page, which is where I could find the original text.)
When finished, this actually reads (not quite literally, and after taking some artistic liberties):
A moth ate words. It seemed to me
a strange circumstance, when I heard of it,
that the worm had swallowed the songs of men,
like a thief in the dark, pocketing poetry,
from the most powerful positions. This thief, however,
was not a bit wiser, even with these songs in his stomach.
'Well, love, but you know the idiom “not yourself”—“He's not himself today,” for example,' crooking and uncrooking fingers to form quotes on either side of what she says, which Mario adores. 'There are, apparently, persons who are deeply afraid of their own emotions, particularly the painful ones. Grief, regret, sadness. Sadness especially, perhaps. Dolores describes these persons as afraid of obliteration, emotional engulfment. As if something truly and thoroughly felt would have no end or bottom. Would become infinite and engulf them.'
‘Engulf means obliterate.’
'I am saying that such persons usually have a very fragile sense of themselves as persons. As existing at all. This interpretation is “existential,” Mario, which means vague and slightly flaky…'
David Foster Wallace Infinite Jest